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Post by Emily on Nov 16, 2013 6:13:34 GMT
That poem is very beautiful, Kathi.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 20, 2013 2:08:01 GMT
The continuing saga.
I was not satisfied with my Beasley's death, without proper knowledge as to WHY. So I purified her body, and took her to her Monday doctor appt in Roseville. I paid for an autopsy.
Today we got the results. My sweet baby had a pituitary tumor. That's what caused the initial diarrhea symptoms, and gradual, then sudden blindness. She was given a bird CAT Scan, in death, that showed a very large brain tumor. I needed to do this autopsy to be certain my other bird wasn't in danger.
Cost: $340.00
Miss Greenley (my other bird) is very upset...she's acting weird. Cuz her roommate is gone. I'm struggling with getting another bird cuz I'm still heartbroken. The older I get, the harder my pets deaths tolls take on me. I've been through absolute emotional/financial HELL in the past months. I'm a wreak. I left Beasley's cage hanging beside Greenley to lesson the shock of her being gone. It's soooooooooo hard for me, however to view her empty cage, half chewed up toys, spotted up mirrors, untouched food and waters, and droppings. I don't know what to do.
God I miss her...
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Post by dianapalmer on Nov 20, 2013 2:45:52 GMT
My heart goes out to you. It is wonderful that you got an answer about the cause of death to give you peace of mind. It is hard to dispose of the belongings of a loved one. Perhaps there is someone who could help you. Perhaps select one toy to keep as a memento. I have known friends who have decided not to have more pets, because losing them is so hard. For myself, I feel there is a place in my heart that needs to be filled by animal friends. When I have lost one it has really hurt. But, when I get another, I really enjoy them. Only you can decide what is right for you. Please do share your decision process with us, because we all care about you and Miss Greenley.
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Post by lisamarie on Nov 20, 2013 3:26:30 GMT
Kathi, That post made me tear up I was hysterical when my Birdie died last summer, he was a great bird. It was so hard to see his cage not in the spot it always was, so I understand how you feel. You did the best you could. Some things like that cannot be prevented. However, she's free of pain and suffering now, which is a good thing.
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Post by Sarah on Nov 20, 2013 3:51:26 GMT
I am so glad that Greenley is at least not in any danger. I hope you will consider bringing a new baby into your life when you feel a little more ready. Beasley wouldn't want you to be saddened by her passing I am sure, and both you and Greenley could use the love, health and exuberance of a young bird to help you let the pain fade away and have only happy memories of Beasley.
Hugs.
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Post by luvsanimals2 on Nov 20, 2013 4:01:19 GMT
I am very glad you can close that door now. We were all wondering what actually happened. Our 2nd budgie, Mr. Feathers, died of a tumor. I am not sure where though. It was very hard because he was such a lovable bird. I would have to agree with Diana, I've had so many pets and grieved so many times, that when it does actually happened. I ask myself, "why do I do this to myself". but without them, it feels like there's a void. Just remember that it takes time
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Post by Deleted on Nov 20, 2013 4:15:17 GMT
My heart goes out to you. It is wonderful that you got an answer about the cause of death to give you peace of mind. It is hard to dispose of the belongings of a loved one. Perhaps there is someone who could help you. Perhaps select one toy to keep as a memento. I have known friends who have decided not to have more pets, because losing them is so hard. For myself, I feel there is a place in my heart that needs to be filled by animal friends. When I have lost one it has really hurt. But, when I get another, I really enjoy them. Only you can decide what is right for you. Please do share your decision process with us, because we all care about you and Miss Greenley. It is hard to simply get rid of her cage and toys. More so because Miss Greenley has been hanging in a cage 10 inches beside her for over 3 years. Greenley KNOWS she's gone. She's acting very weird. She usually plays with her toys vigorously all day long. Greens loves to play. She's always been very happy and content on her own. All the sudden, she's not playing. I'm worried about that.....totally not normal. YES! Beasley only pased away on Friday, but I'm seeing scary behavior in my Greenley now.
i am indeed struggling with taking on another parakeet, not due to lack of love, but because I'm getting tired of losing my pets. I lost a cat on Nov 7th to kidney failure. And Beasley just 7 days later. I don't have kids. Ive lost 6 babies to miscarriage, I'm 53 years old, with no children. My kids have always been my feathered and furry friends.
Animals are the heart of my soul. They mean EVERYTHING to me. I have loved, adopted, nurtured, rescued, and invested so much love, devotion, money and time into them you cannot even imagine. I'm so sorry to go on, and on. I just feel so saddened right now. And confused. I'm an "animal lover" who's afraid to take on another parakeet, fearing it may outlive me.
i want another baby, so does Greenley, but is it right at my age?
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Post by Deleted on Nov 20, 2013 4:30:31 GMT
I am very glad you can close that door now. We were all wondering what actually happened. Our 2nd budgie, Mr. Feathers, died of a tumor. I am not sure where though. It was very hard because he was such a lovable bird. I would have to agree with Diana, I've had so many pets and grieved so many times, that when it does actually happened. I ask myself, "why do I do this to myself". but without them, it feels like there's a void. Just remember that it takes time OMG....that is so true. It's so painful when I've lost my babies, I grieve long and hard, but my mindset always goes toward adopting another pet to love....not to REPLACE...but to love.
Im a self professed animal lover. And "they" do give me purpose. Without them there is a huge "VOID" in my life....I adore their sweet love, purity, innocence, and returned unconditional love. They fill my empty home with PURE joy and happiness.
I agree, it's gonna take time....I'm broken.
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Post by Pammy on Nov 20, 2013 5:08:05 GMT
Kathi, I add my condolences to those of our friends here. I'm so sorry you are going thru such a rough patch. It's terribly difficult to lose the ones we love. I know it's not the same thing because I do have living children, and I recognize the difference, but I too have suffered the losses of four unborn babies, so my heart understands your heart on that matter. Please know we care very much about you and about Miss Greenley. If you are concerned about age and a baby parakeet outliving you, or outliving your ability to care for it, might I suggest checking Craig's List or some animal shelters. There are oodles of older birds who need loving retirement homes. Perhaps one of them would be a perfect fit for you. It's worth thinking about, anyway. Maybe the tragedy of Miss Beasley's death can result in an older bird finding his/her much-needed later-in-life mommy. After you get done having Sarah's hug, here's one from me.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 20, 2013 5:08:31 GMT
Kathi, That post made me tear up I was hysterical when my Birdie died last summer, he was a great bird. It was so hard to see his cage not in the spot it always was, so I understand how you feel. You did the best you could. Some things like that cannot be prevented. However, she's free of pain and suffering now, which is a good thing. Thank you so much...I've been hysterical over the past month as well. I lost a beloved cat on Nov 7th too, My heart is shattered. I'm struggling with both grief, and blaming myself for not acting quickly enough to save her. According to Dr. Popkey at The Bird and Pet Clinic in Roseville CA....there was nothing I could have done to save her. She had a brain tumor. But I don't feel any better knowing that. ?
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Post by Emily on Nov 20, 2013 5:15:02 GMT
Kathi, when I lost my Soren right before Christmas time I told myself I wouldn't get another bird because I couldn't handle how much it hurt to not have him anymore. I'm not going to lie, it took almost a year to get over the big hill of heartache, and even now I miss how friendly and unique he was. But I love my budgies, and my heart has been captured by my silly clumsy baby cockatiel and I cant imagine it any other way.
Green is definitely missing Beasley. It's for that reason that I hope you one day feel ready to open your heart to another bird. Green needs someone to rely on and heal from her loss just like you can come to us on here for support or to vent.
As for the age part: if we went through life questioning things we do based on the time we have left on earth, I guarantee no one would get anything done. No one knows when our time is up, and so it's more important to use the time we have wisely and like it's gold. I say go for it.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 20, 2013 5:29:45 GMT
Kathi, when I lost my Soren right before Christmas time I told myself I wouldn't get another bird because I couldn't handle how much it hurt to not have him anymore. I'm not going to lie, it took almost a year to get over the big hill of heartache, and even now I miss how friendly and unique he was. But I love my budgies, and my heart has been captured by my silly clumsy baby cockatiel and I cant imagine it any other way. Green is definitely missing Beasley. It's for that reason that I hope you one day feel ready to open your heart to another bird. Green needs someone to rely on and heal from her loss just like you can come to us on here for support or to vent. As for the age part: if we went through life questioning things we do based on the time we have left on earth, I guarantee no one would get anything done. No one knows when our time is up, and so it's more important to use the time we have wisely and like it's gold. I say go for it. Oh Sweet Emily,
You are so sweet, caring, and right on point emotionally. You so eloquently put into words, exactly what my heart feels. You're a superstar. Trust me.
My babies (budgies) have also been so unique in their personality. They, Miss Beasley (departed) and my Miss Greenley were uniquely different in personality. TOTALLY DIFFERENT.
Here's Miss Greenley....she's SO AWESOME!!
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Post by Deleted on Nov 20, 2013 5:43:06 GMT
Kathi, I add my condolences to those of our friends here. I'm so sorry you are going thru such a rough patch. It's terribly difficult to lose the ones we love. I know it's not the same thing because I do have living children, and I recognize the difference, but I too have suffered the losses of four unborn babies, so my heart understands your heart on that matter. Please know we care very much about you and about Miss Greenley. If you are concerned about age and a baby parakeet outliving you, or outliving your ability to care for it, might I suggest checking Craig's List or some animal shelters. There are oodles of older birds who need loving retirement homes. Perhaps one of them would be a perfect fit for you. It's worth thinking about, anyway. Maybe the tragedy of Miss Beasley's death can result in an older bird finding his/her much-needed later-in-life mommy. After you get done having Sarah's hug, here's one from me. Thank you Pammy,
We're connected on a whole other level...and I appreciate you're knowing that pain as well. Thank you for trying to appeal to me on the "age" realm....I resonate with everything you're saying. I think I just need time to heal...right now, with two recent losses in 12 days, I'm an emotional wreak. I need to stop, drop, and roll...for lack of a better term. lol.
Im trying to laugh, but bawling on the inside right now.
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Post by budger on Nov 20, 2013 9:58:43 GMT
Hello Kathi! I'm very sorry to hear about your little darling, but I have a few pieces of advice. 1. There is always a chance the blindness is temporary, and could very well be due to parasites. 2. I know we are quick to get angry at the vet, but we shouldn't. The vet did nothing wrong, just as with human doctors, they can't always find the problem first go around. And that has nothing to do with their skill or knowledge, just living things are complex. I would personally bring my bird in for observation. You can think what you will of the vet, but they ARE a licensed avian specialist, so they really do know what they are doing. You could cause greater risk you your little love by not taking her in. A decision like that saved my little dachshunds life. 3. While the sand paper cover help with their little nails, they can, and often tend to, injure the bottoms of their little feets. Sometimes even causing hemorrhages. I suggest a cement perch. They do the same thing, and are nicer to our little friends. I wish you all the luck in the world. Watching our beloved animals in pain is horrid. But they are much tougher than we are, and can still be happy as ever after they adjust! I truly hope and pray that your baby will fully recover, and give you many more happy years. *hugs*
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Post by budger on Nov 20, 2013 10:02:35 GMT
OH GOD OH GOD! I didn't even see the final post. I'm crying now! I'm so very sorry for your loss. Losing my birds hurt more every time. My first budgie had his little neck broken, and I held him as he died. It hurt so deeply. I'm sending you happy thoughts, and love.
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